oh boyy

Today i woke up pretty late.. around 2. i dont know why but i called him the moment i woke up. i guess it's becoming a habit now of thinking of him first whenever i wake up. dont really know if thats a good thing or a bad thing:P well. took a nice hot shower.. then went to borders right after. Today was supposed to be the day where i start my homework and continue on my week like that, but i guess its harder than i thought :/ im trying to focus on chemistry but my head is just out there right now -- urgh. i hate this sooo much. Now im like frustrated trying to find his own blogspot too.. frigggen stressin me out mang. hmm, i am in alot of pain right now: my right arm, hip tendon, and my ass. im clueless how i got all these places to be in pain. i think soon this week i might go to acupuncture if it gets worse. So today is day number FOUR. but technically.. TWENTY-EIGHT =) haha. hoping these numbers will continue on increasing non-stop, yeah ? =) I dont know, the more im with him the more i develop feelings, the more i get attached to him emotionally, mentally, physically, etc. is that good? he had a stomach ache and i rubbed him belly.. first it was over his sweater then under the sweater on top of his tshirt.. i didnt go to the point where it was just bare skin but honestly.. it was a huge temptation and i was like 'URGH'.. like thinking about it.. i dont want to lose anything. im risking so much even to this point right now.. i dont want to do something imma regret later on.. i dont want to give him too much or too little but at the same time i cant help it but to give what i got. im not saying im in love.. probably we're far from that. but i know that right now we're at a point where we both like each other alot and clearly enjoy being together, whether its as friends or as bf&gf type. yeah i know its stupid of me to always think about the future but at the same time its like what the hell you want me to do? friggen guys screwed me over and over again, so isnt it natural for me to think ahead if this is a guy i can see being with in the future? so far.. its a yes. hoping it wouldnt become a no.. but idk. if things happen.. then it happens ya know? i cant do anything about it. my mom tells me to not get too into him.. cause if i fall.. its gonna get really hard to get up again. yeah, ill trust her on this. imma not fall for him. or.. at least ill try not to. like i dont really know how to expain it.. but i like the way things are right now.. i really do. im not fighting with my parents.. im not lying to them.. not sneaking around with him.. things are going good. imma keep my fingers crossed that it will stay this way. well imma go now.. write more later if i feel like it =P

LATER ALLIGATOR.

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This chick right heree <3