Hi, how are you feeling? i want to be honest, just because we havent talked all day long for some stupid reason im getting these really weird crazy ideas right now.. im hoping someone will call or tell me something that will fix my stupid little imagination =/ i guess im just a little worried because if we dont talk all day long then that will lead to another day and then another day and eventually you and i will stop talking. previously, a while back this occured to me and i guess i did get a little hurt by that. that guy promised me that he wouldnt just leave me or stop talking to me for no reason and he isnt like that.. i believed him but i shouldnt had. im really, sincerely hoping youre much different than that. besides.. youre too nice to do that right? .. apparently what happened between me and that guy was that when he "liked" me he also liked my close friend.. and he was flirting with her and etc behind my back. suddenly one day, he just STOPPED talking. ever since that day.. i called.. i texted..never gotten a reply. and that was the last time i heard from him. from that day on, i promised myself i will never ever believe those kind of shit and i will never be treated like that ever again. and even though you and i are "almost" together imma still keep that promise. so far i dont have a feeling that you're that type of guy but still, not only to you but for everyone else, i am no longer going to be treated like crap. im not going to let that happen. im hoping that youre just in bed knocked out cause your sick and not ignoring me at the moment or annoyed if worse. imma apologize if i am bothering you. im not like that, dont wanna be like those kind of girls who is like that. im a chill person, someone who is down for anything. im not the clingy type but sometimes i just cant help but not think about you or not care for you or not worry about you. its sorta like a bad habit but at the same time at least it shows that i have a heart and i actually have you in a special place in my heart. im crossing my fingers that you'll get better and ill see you walk down those halls with a smile on your face. im hoping for it. when i see you, i promised myself i will give you the biggest hug, because thats how much i worried over you and how much i missed you. yeah, i admit it. i miss you. i didnt realize that i missed you until last night but still i miss you. it has been what like 2 frikken LONG ASS days. so long that imma go crazy. i need to go out and have some fun. hoping you will come along too? (: but anyways, im excited for saturday and im totally hoping youll feel MUCHMUCH better. ill pray yeah? (: IMY, HYFB, SYL =)
Until next time,
Love, this chick right here <3
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