my heart is acheing so much in so many ways. today im deciding on attending the Kiwins dance.. i was soooo excited about it, and i am still but im also hurt. i got a call from my mom, she was soo PISSED. like PISSEDPISSED. she saw the other praise team members practicing for tonights worship, i guess she really got hurt by that.. seeing her daughter not being responsible and just going off to dances and not going to church becaus i dont feel like it. its not that, of course i lovelovelove going to church and worshiping.. but iwanted to dance tonight.. i guess my mom and i hung up the phone in a total bad way.. so i called her back. i really dont want my mom to get hurt because i've made a mistake. if shes always forcing me to go to church and all how will i ever know the truth? throughout my mistakes i know it will be worth it at the end, because of me having the knowledge to change. i really hated that i am disappointing my mom.. but ithink she should try to let me be and all.. let me have some freedom? so in the end.. i can learn.
-JoyceEbenezerChang-