Yesterday was pretty amazingly hectic. so like always, i got into my p-o-mode -0- everything and everyone was pissing the heck outta me. i was later on disappointed in myself for being mad at the smallest things.. oh gooshness.. i was forced to be in the play/musical/dance for the church event.. i was mad, very mad. Later on last night i found out that i also had to be in the leaders/praise team skit.. sooooo pissed off about that too. why cant we just do whatever the heck we want.. why do we always have to be frikken forced? sometimes i hate church for this.. always trying to be a better church by forcing us.. but whatever. thats the past, i have to forget it and start looking forward my crappy future, thats right, right? ugrh. i feel like these days i have no one to trust except like SPECIAL amount of people, i think i give my heart out to people wayyyy too easily.. -sigh- is that a bad thing though ? to have a heart for everyone, instead of just a couple people? i think its not, well unless those people turn their back on you and go against you.. gooshness. i hate this. i hate everything.
-JoyceEbenezerChang-